i think about this and that while listening to the radio news in icelandic. (with the fragrance from swimming pool on my body)

プールの後に自分がプールの香りがするのが好きだ。滞在先のおばさんが聞いてたアイスランド語のラジオを聞いていた。私も横で一緒にその”サウンド”を聴いていた。時々単語を聞き取った。「エイミー・ワインハウス」「オスロ」などなど・・・。エイミー・ワインハウスの死はいたたまれない気持ちになってしまう。そんな彼女の27歳の訃報をまだ受け入れきれてないというのに。日本からはレイ・ハラカミの若すぎる訃報。胸が痛くて、ご冥福をお祈りするしかできません・・・。そして「オスロ」こちらではとても大きく報道されているオスロのテロについて・・・全く不可解なテロの行動。なぜノルウェーの若い人たちが殺されなければいけなかったのか。けど、その原因が「（イスラム）移民排除」だと知り、今の自分の状況と少し重ね合わせてしまい、いろんなことを思った。
窓の外を見ると、カモメが目の前の教会の十字架の上で、辺りを見回していた。何度も何度も、注意深く、するどく。何を見てるのー？って聞きたかった。しばらくしたらカモメは飛んで行ってしまった。今日は風が強く、雨で、寒かったな。ちょいセンチメンタル。でもプールはよかった。ところで。イギリスにいた時は、気を抜くと英語は単なる”サウンド”でしかなくなってたんだけど、今ここアイスランドでは、アイスランド語が”サウンド”になって、そんな状況で英語が突然聞こえると、その英語を意味のある言語として認識している自分を発見（今までもずっとそうだったんだけど、今回もやっぱりそうやって感じた）。不思議だなー。無意識に周りの声から”意味”を拾おうとしているのだね、きっと。


fragrance from swimming pool on my body after swimming/bathing there. its so lovely:)

my icelandic aunt was listening to the radio (in icelandic) on a sofa. i also laid down on a sofa in a cozy. though i didn't understand what the radio broadcasting, i found it was so comfortable in the "sound" of icelandic . but sometimes, i picked up the words like "Oslo" "Norge" "Amy Winehouse"...

i haven't be able to accept amy winehouse 27 year-old death... i was so shocked and sorry... R.I.P..

and about Oslo terrorism... its so sad. so so extremely sad... same as everyone i was disgusted with what's happened, what he did… and also, for me personally, i was so shocked why he did it. he tried to get rid of (muslim) immigration.... now i'm just visiting Icelandic immigration office to get my residence permit here. (not really permanent immigration but still, staying for a year). i didn't understand at all why for that reason, so many young norwegian people had to be killed, but i couldn't help feeling even guilt for them. would you think i'm invading your world? so sad feelings. and sentimental.




hey! look! a seagull on the top of the church cross!
he/she looked around very carefully and sharply many times this way and that way.i would like to ask to him/her what are you looking at? what are you checking? what are you holding in your mind? how are you?
after for a while he/she opened his/her beautiful wings, then flied away in to the distance.




today it was so windy and rain.
by the way, when i lived in london, english, as my second language, was sometimes regarded as just only 'sound' not as language when i didn't pay attention. but here in iceland, i think 'icelandic' took part of the 'sound' for me, then i noticed, 'english' is no longer the sound but recognized as the language contain meanings. i thought it was very curious.


my thoughts are with not only Japanese but also with Norwegians (and people from the rest of the world) from iceland . . . best regards keiko x